for some reason, i just decided to pay my dead blog a visit. i remember this was once the place where my fingers just danced freely across the keyboard, pouring out my thought and emotions all at the same time. i solemnly miss the feeling of it. looking through my older post, motion memories start to flash back little by little, whilst giggling to myself how crazy and funny i can be at times when i am pissed.
so yeah, I'm back to doing one of the best thing i do- Chill and Bitch! HEHE
hmmmmm, regarding my post title "Jingle the sorrows away, Santa" . it was a random thing. well to be honest, I'm feeling kinda down right now. you see, i love my mom. i really do. Christmas is just mere days away. so, i asked my mom "Mi (short form for mummy), what do u want for Christmas?" she replied " I just want happiness." I was like "HARR? how to buy happiness?" then she started mumbling something which I can't remember already. i shall elaborate on my mom in a new chapter.
also, today afternoon i saw on the couch this newspaper cut out from the classified section, attached with it was a hand written letter. i knew instantly my dad was up to something AGAIN. that little "something" was my dad looking for a job. despite knowing what it was, i picked it up and asked him what that was while reading it. it says something something maintainence officer. requires experience in plumbing, safety, and hands on work. NO WAY. he is too old for this. he asked me to help him type out the letter. my straight answer was NO. it was not because i was lazy, but the simply truth is that i don't want to see him suffer. i can't express my true thoughts so i decided to say stupid things to break his spirit such as "yerrr hands on? you can't do it la dee (short form for daddy)" SIGH.
i was doing some thinking after that.
Am I over spending? -Yes
Am I spending on things that i really need?-No
Have I been contended with what i already have?-No
Have I thanked them for what they provide me?-No
Have I been spending or buying things to "show" that my family is quite well off?-Yes
Have I been spending or buying things to "pretend" that my family is quite well off? -Yes
Have I been acting all "Siu Yeh Zhai"-ish or "Diva"-ish ? -BIG YES
Ryan wears ADIDAS shoes. what does daddy wear? -old shoes
Ryan eats good food. what does daddy eat? sucky worker food
Ryan goes to Bianco Saloon to get his hair done. where does daddy go? -mamak barber
Ryan wears nice comfortable clothes. what does daddy wear? ryan's old unwanted clothes
Ryan wants a top range laptop, daddy pays for it
Ryan wants anything, daddy provides.
question arises, where does the money come from? where did this devil within me start to take control of my life? i need to make a difference.
if this goes on, i'll earn myself a place in hell.
i blame myself because of my "Sei You Min" attitude, i made my parent's life hard.
im sorry.
Friday, December 21, 2007
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Fucker Bitch
arghhhh. as usual i have to blog about my tuesdays' Larder class.
this time, imagine yourself shitting halfway and suddenly you fell into the toilet bowl with fresh shit in it. haha. embarrassing right? okay thats how i felt. the story was, i was doing the brown sauce thingie and somehow i stirred it correctly and the result was pretty nice. the F.U.B actually complimented me! though she didnt see who it was. oh well. kena puji for ONCE. hohoho. my moment of glory didnt last long. SADLY
after transfering my brown sauce into a bigger pot, i had to wash my bowls and saucepan. as i was washing the saucepan after the bowls, she interrupted : "eh boy u wash here ahh, tomorrow also cannot finish i tell you.. (bla bla bla)" okay la in my heart i was wtv-ing her.. so i wiped it and put the stuffs back. SUDDENLY, she shouted : "i have been receiving lots of complaints ahh, that the saucepans aren't washed cleanly. show me your saucepan after washing it.!" i was pretty confident that my saucepan was squeeky clean so i passed it to her. to my HORROR, there was this patch of brown thingie still there. what happened next? DOH she sounded me. haha. she even put the pot soo damn near to my face and said something like i am embarrassing myself. indeed i was! malu siod.
it wasn't fully MY FAULT as there weren't any USEABLE sponge or scrubber AND washing liquid in that kitchen. i had to use my hands k?? argh. okay so she ordered that boot licker to take some scrubber from Esther or wtv her name is. i was given a brand new scrubber sponge to "redeem my mistake". being blur as usual, i just used the yellow part( the sponge) instead of the green part( the scrubber). so.... kena marah AGAIN la! ish... tekanan siod...
as she was marah-ing me, i remember she said something that hit me. "don't you do washing at home??" i sheepishly shock my head side to sides as a sign of NO. she replied by saying how am i going to cook.! i just kept quiet jer.. sakit hati..!!!
here is what i wanted to tell her in my heart (but i was too afraid la as usual) :
"IS IT A CRIME NOT KNOWING HOW TO WASH THE DISHES? COME ON OKAY, I HAVE TWO MAIDS TO DO IT FOR ME. I AM HERE TO LEARN. YOU ARE HERE TO TEACH ME. BUT APPARENTLY YOU ARE NOT DOING YOUR JOB WELL."
pissed.
this time, imagine yourself shitting halfway and suddenly you fell into the toilet bowl with fresh shit in it. haha. embarrassing right? okay thats how i felt. the story was, i was doing the brown sauce thingie and somehow i stirred it correctly and the result was pretty nice. the F.U.B actually complimented me! though she didnt see who it was. oh well. kena puji for ONCE. hohoho. my moment of glory didnt last long. SADLY
after transfering my brown sauce into a bigger pot, i had to wash my bowls and saucepan. as i was washing the saucepan after the bowls, she interrupted : "eh boy u wash here ahh, tomorrow also cannot finish i tell you.. (bla bla bla)" okay la in my heart i was wtv-ing her.. so i wiped it and put the stuffs back. SUDDENLY, she shouted : "i have been receiving lots of complaints ahh, that the saucepans aren't washed cleanly. show me your saucepan after washing it.!" i was pretty confident that my saucepan was squeeky clean so i passed it to her. to my HORROR, there was this patch of brown thingie still there. what happened next? DOH she sounded me. haha. she even put the pot soo damn near to my face and said something like i am embarrassing myself. indeed i was! malu siod.
it wasn't fully MY FAULT as there weren't any USEABLE sponge or scrubber AND washing liquid in that kitchen. i had to use my hands k?? argh. okay so she ordered that boot licker to take some scrubber from Esther or wtv her name is. i was given a brand new scrubber sponge to "redeem my mistake". being blur as usual, i just used the yellow part( the sponge) instead of the green part( the scrubber). so.... kena marah AGAIN la! ish... tekanan siod...
as she was marah-ing me, i remember she said something that hit me. "don't you do washing at home??" i sheepishly shock my head side to sides as a sign of NO. she replied by saying how am i going to cook.! i just kept quiet jer.. sakit hati..!!!
here is what i wanted to tell her in my heart (but i was too afraid la as usual) :
"IS IT A CRIME NOT KNOWING HOW TO WASH THE DISHES? COME ON OKAY, I HAVE TWO MAIDS TO DO IT FOR ME. I AM HERE TO LEARN. YOU ARE HERE TO TEACH ME. BUT APPARENTLY YOU ARE NOT DOING YOUR JOB WELL."
pissed.
Monday, May 7, 2007
P.I.C.T.U.R.E.S
okay who the hell wants to read freaking long blogs? hell no for me.! (though i do crap until quite long sometimes)..haha. but i'd rather be kehpochi and look at other people's pictures instead. HEHE. so here goes... my picture stories...
during chinese new year. talking to my grandma over the phone in singapore. haha. weird.
it was so sunny in the room at night
trying to do a hot pose. not bad wat.. haha
in the family house in penang island. comfort makes me zzZ
i was bored in the esprit fitting room. thats my mom's butt. haha
on the way to penang island. my beloved hometown. i look like a bosS. hehe. i wish.
during chinese new year. talking to my grandma over the phone in singapore. haha. weird.
it was so sunny in the room at night
trying to do a hot pose. not bad wat.. haha
in the family house in penang island. comfort makes me zzZ
i was bored in the esprit fitting room. thats my mom's butt. haha
on the way to penang island. my beloved hometown. i look like a bosS. hehe. i wish.
Thursday, May 3, 2007
now u see it, now you dont
okay so today when i woke up, i dont know why i just felt like going out. maybe its because i've been out straight for the past few days. i decided to go to ou with my fren shu yi.!
regarding my title for this blog, here is how i spent my money:
i "korek-ed" RM100.00 from my mom's bag. intially, i took RM50.00 but i saw that there were soooo many of it!! so i took 2 pieces of RM50.00. HEHE. like as if she is gonna know the difference right??? hahaha. oh ya i wasnt stealing. i asked my mom first okie? when i was on the way down the stairs she asked me how much i took and i said a hundred. so thats not stealing okie?
1. RM11.00 for seafood tempura and XXL Chicken
2. RM13.00 for accessories from Padini
3. RM20.00 for a meal in Char Chan Theng or wtv. oh ya remember not to eat at this place anymore coz my fren told me once, his meal came with hair and his friend's meal had burnt newspaper in it. GROSS
4.Rm3.00 for a game of pool
5. Rm4.00 for a Nestle Strawberry Youghurt Drink and a bottle of Sunist Orange Juice
6. Shu Yi borrowed RM35.00 for her kasut and a hair brush
7. Rm4.00 for 2 cans of Shandy
8. Rm10.00 for my Dove conditioner
so thats like a hunded.. i think.. my math sucks okay? XD
anyways after all the lepak-ing shu yi and i went back to visit lai yeng again in My Little Intellect- Shu Yi's aunt's shop. there, we BURPEDDD.....and i managed to burp lai yeng's name.. wahahaha.
regarding my title for this blog, here is how i spent my money:
i "korek-ed" RM100.00 from my mom's bag. intially, i took RM50.00 but i saw that there were soooo many of it!! so i took 2 pieces of RM50.00. HEHE. like as if she is gonna know the difference right??? hahaha. oh ya i wasnt stealing. i asked my mom first okie? when i was on the way down the stairs she asked me how much i took and i said a hundred. so thats not stealing okie?
1. RM11.00 for seafood tempura and XXL Chicken
2. RM13.00 for accessories from Padini
3. RM20.00 for a meal in Char Chan Theng or wtv. oh ya remember not to eat at this place anymore coz my fren told me once, his meal came with hair and his friend's meal had burnt newspaper in it. GROSS
4.Rm3.00 for a game of pool
5. Rm4.00 for a Nestle Strawberry Youghurt Drink and a bottle of Sunist Orange Juice
6. Shu Yi borrowed RM35.00 for her kasut and a hair brush
7. Rm4.00 for 2 cans of Shandy
8. Rm10.00 for my Dove conditioner
so thats like a hunded.. i think.. my math sucks okay? XD
anyways after all the lepak-ing shu yi and i went back to visit lai yeng again in My Little Intellect- Shu Yi's aunt's shop. there, we BURPEDDD.....and i managed to burp lai yeng's name.. wahahaha.
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
P.I.E.R.C.I.N.G
after sooooo many years of wanting to do it, AT LAST, i had the courage to get it done thanks to someone. i think it looks kinda nice though. it brings a little life to my face since i look pretty dull and sickly sometimes. LOL got it done in sunway pyramid on the 1st of May 2007- a very memorable day for me indeed. it'll live in my memory forever. hmmmm.. the piercing also gave me a small ego boost. hahahaha
what my family said:
Bro: u serious?? not nice.. nice.. i dont know
Sis 1: YUCK so ugly... eeek....!
Sis 2 : YER.........
Mom: lu see ta bor asi zha bor?? ( are u a boy or a girl??)
Dad: you say nice then nice la. abit gay. hahahaha
Aunt: wahh! u better make sure you pierce the correct side. later attract wrong gender. LOL
Shu Yi and Lai Yeng : nice. they said cute also i think. HEHE
-RYaN-
Friday, April 27, 2007
bitchin' time... HEHEEE
okay there is this thing or shall i say person i wanna bitch about. she is none other than..... the F.U.B aka *Fucked Up Bitch*
i was devastated when we found out one of our subject was taught by her. AGAIN. HOLLY COW i thought our nightmares and gloomy days with her in semested 1 were over.
she is utterly ridiculous in many ways and think she is the almighty and high above the rest. she doesn't have respect for others and expect us to know EVERYTHING and do everything RIGHT the first time. everytime i have to put on a MASK and be pretentious to be nice in front of her. everyone does that. mind u, her boots are so shiny u can reflect your self image on it-why? because there are freaking boot lickers around. argh. whatever it is he/she/they are still my frens as i do seek guidance from them. i just don't like the fact that one of them likes to SNATCH JOBS from not only me but other people as well. damn blardy intimidated and pissed cuz when "that person" "helped" me, the lecturer was heading to my table and "that person" wanted to IMPRESS her, and she got what she wanted. the praise. me on the other hand got some uneasy sounding. boiling inside. F.U.B loves to praise herself too. freak. so self absorbed.
to be continued.. my bitching mode is not really on today.. XD
i was devastated when we found out one of our subject was taught by her. AGAIN. HOLLY COW i thought our nightmares and gloomy days with her in semested 1 were over.
she is utterly ridiculous in many ways and think she is the almighty and high above the rest. she doesn't have respect for others and expect us to know EVERYTHING and do everything RIGHT the first time. everytime i have to put on a MASK and be pretentious to be nice in front of her. everyone does that. mind u, her boots are so shiny u can reflect your self image on it-why? because there are freaking boot lickers around. argh. whatever it is he/she/they are still my frens as i do seek guidance from them. i just don't like the fact that one of them likes to SNATCH JOBS from not only me but other people as well. damn blardy intimidated and pissed cuz when "that person" "helped" me, the lecturer was heading to my table and "that person" wanted to IMPRESS her, and she got what she wanted. the praise. me on the other hand got some uneasy sounding. boiling inside. F.U.B loves to praise herself too. freak. so self absorbed.
to be continued.. my bitching mode is not really on today.. XD
deed of the day
i realize every now and then, this old lady would come into Blitzone and walk around here and there. The first time i saw her i made a joke in my silly mind saying "huh?? old lady also play online games.?" LOL
later on, i discovered to my dismay that she was actually digging through the trashcan, looking for aluminium cans!! it was utterly disgusting and unhygienic to do so. due to the intensity of my game of CS, i forgotten about it later on
later that night suddenly i remembered about that old lady. i actually took time to think how can i give her a hand. give her more cans? give her money? hmm.. suddenly i remembered myself asking my maid to keep the old aluminium cans for recycling a few months back during Chinese New Year. i wonder if she did it. hmmmm... but to be honest, i thought one step ahead- how the hell am i gonna bring those stupid aluminium cans to a cyber cafe?? put it in my bag and wait for her arrival?? people would think i'm psycho and it would be pretty much embarrassing.
but today, as i was walking out from Blitzone to buy lotus pau for kevin, i saw her walking towards Blitzone. after getting back to the cyber cafe with no pau, i decided to buy a drink to quench my thirst. i was wondering where did she go. the moment i finished my drink, i saw that she had just left the cyber cafe. i decided to ignore my "sei you min" attitude and walked out to give her my empty can.
as i got out, the word "what in the world??" played in my head. she was frantically searching through the garbage bin in front of the premise. i quickly handed her my empty can. she gave me a "wahh...." followed by a big bright smile. and i went back inside, feeling much better
although it was just ONE empty can, i played my part in helping someone to ease their burden. besides, i also contribute to nature! recycle leh... HEHE
-RYaN-
later on, i discovered to my dismay that she was actually digging through the trashcan, looking for aluminium cans!! it was utterly disgusting and unhygienic to do so. due to the intensity of my game of CS, i forgotten about it later on
later that night suddenly i remembered about that old lady. i actually took time to think how can i give her a hand. give her more cans? give her money? hmm.. suddenly i remembered myself asking my maid to keep the old aluminium cans for recycling a few months back during Chinese New Year. i wonder if she did it. hmmmm... but to be honest, i thought one step ahead- how the hell am i gonna bring those stupid aluminium cans to a cyber cafe?? put it in my bag and wait for her arrival?? people would think i'm psycho and it would be pretty much embarrassing.
but today, as i was walking out from Blitzone to buy lotus pau for kevin, i saw her walking towards Blitzone. after getting back to the cyber cafe with no pau, i decided to buy a drink to quench my thirst. i was wondering where did she go. the moment i finished my drink, i saw that she had just left the cyber cafe. i decided to ignore my "sei you min" attitude and walked out to give her my empty can.
as i got out, the word "what in the world??" played in my head. she was frantically searching through the garbage bin in front of the premise. i quickly handed her my empty can. she gave me a "wahh...." followed by a big bright smile. and i went back inside, feeling much better
although it was just ONE empty can, i played my part in helping someone to ease their burden. besides, i also contribute to nature! recycle leh... HEHE
-RYaN-
Thursday, April 26, 2007
my very first post
huhu! i'm back with another blog after deleting my old blog since i was kinda busy with college life. i hope this blog can last longer than the last. wahahaha
the purspose of this blog is for me to :
1. Release my ANGER
2. Bitch
3. Gossip
4. Review the things i had learned in class
5. Chill
6. Kill time
7. Discover more about myself
8. USE my brain and think
9. Improve my memory
10. And CRAP
HEHE
-RYaN-
the purspose of this blog is for me to :
1. Release my ANGER
2. Bitch
3. Gossip
4. Review the things i had learned in class
5. Chill
6. Kill time
7. Discover more about myself
8. USE my brain and think
9. Improve my memory
10. And CRAP
HEHE
-RYaN-
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